well this week has been interesting and I'm strangely calm about it. I got caught drinking yet and i have to go to AA but my mom forgets to drive me :/. I might not be able to go to shows now because of "reckless behavior". Well my parents don't like me much so they try and make everything hard for me,but I'm going to keep it cool. Than they'll think that I'm not such an intoxicated fool after all
hahaha. well other than my parents scared about my liver I've really artistically inspired. I've been listening to a lot of Electrocore lately as well as a lot of keyboard induced music and of course I always have Indie music in my brain. I really want to get a digital rebel and still have money if thats possible. :/ I'm probably getting a sidekick in September I really been wanting to start my future now a move to Seattle or Montreal or maybe even Berkley and start up a Indie band. I'm really sad to see that I'm too short for runway modeling :/ but I'll find a way to model some how. I'll be like those girls on Top Model without the saggy boobs and the complaining haha. I really want to just start over in a new city with a few of my friends so I'm not all alone but It's just been a drag lately in Hawaii more than it usually is. Well I'm starting to mend old friendships that have faded. :] I just really am sick of being home and sad all the time. I miss my happiness and I MISS MY LOVE LIFE haha. I should stop now I'm getting to nostalgic again.

haha well that's it for now.

Sean.